Friday, April 25, 2008

Disconnected dream seeks context and meaning

A couple of days ago I woke up with a thought. It made a lot of sense then in that limbo like semi dreaming state between being awake and asleep. Problem is I really can't remember the exact thought or the context in which it seemed to make so much sense.

it was a question along the lines of;

"Has modern Christianity over spiritualised the secular while under spiritualising God and faith?"

So here's my challenge. Help me find the context in which this comment made so much sense! What do you think? is there anything to it? ?r was this dream glimpse nothing more than that; a glimpse of a random piece of dreaming?

Friday, April 18, 2008

Self Injury

About a year ago I went to a training seminar on teen issues. It dealt with some of the deep stuff that teenagers deal with and how, as Youth Workers we can help. One of the subject discussed in that seminar was Self Injury. At that point in my life this was not a subject or issue I had any experience of. I'd heard of it but had never had a direct encounter with it, but somehow that segment of the seminar leaped out at me as if I could almost tangibly feel God telling me ‘Get ready. You’re going to be encountering this’. That feeling was overwhelmingly strong so I did a little background reading and a little praying and went on with my life.

Well, it almost a year later that I actually encountered it but I thank God that he gave me some warning. I have no idea how I’d have reacted if I’d been unprepared. As it is, I'm doing what I can to help. I'm not sure why God pressed this particular issue so deeply into my heart but I suspect this is not the only time I'm going to encounter this.

I know there are so many others out there who are hurting, crying, dieing inside and for whom Self Injury is the only way they know how to cope. If that's you my heart cries for you. My soul cries for you. I’m no-one special, but i burn within to reach out to those who hurt. I wish I could find a way to tell you how much you are loved, how special God thinks you are, I wish I could hug you, be there with you, i wish you could know that God wants to take you up in his arms and hold you until there are no more tears, that Jesus weeps for your pain, that he cries out in intercession for you, that he longs for you to know his love and and healing.

I hadn't planned to write these words, but for some reason my heart is breaking and I feel compelled to write this. I don't know if anyone will read it or if I'm writing to a vacuum BUT I can't ignore the feeling that there's someone out there crying out to be loved. If you're reading this post, if it's somehow meant for you, please, please please, whoever you are, don’t do this alone. There are people out there who care and who can help. Know that you are loved and I am praying for you.

I’m going to end and post this now before I second guess myself and change my mind.

Friday, April 4, 2008


This cartoon is from ASBO Jesus. It's one of the sites I check every day, makes me laugh and makes me think. enjoy.

Thursday, April 3, 2008


You know, this blogging thing is hard. I have so much i want to say, so much stuff in my head but I can't seem to work out what I should write. Too much. too much going on I can barely sort through it so I end up typing nothing. Sometimes I think about something I want to say but there's too much background to it and it ends up being easier to say nothing. most of the time I'm lazy, sometimes I'm discouraged because nobody reads this anyway, sometimes I'm too busy. Mostly I just have no idea what to say. Not because I have nothing to say but because I have too much to say and I have no idea how to sort through it all.

Honestly? Much of the time in blogging as in the rest of my life I have no idea what I'm doing, why I'm doing it or how I should do it. Whatever it is.

Make of that what you will.